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I work hard to control the voices in my head. And even harder to be a voice for others

I work hard to control the voices in my head. And even harder to be a voice for others

CBC
Tuesday, August 2, 2022 1:32 PM GMT

This First Person column is written by Leif Gregersen, who advocates as community educator sharing his lived experience with schizoaffective disorder and anxiety. For more information about CBC's First Person stories, please see the FAQ.

"I think we should kick the door in," came a voice from the hallway. "I think we should kill him," another voice said. "I'm tired of the noise. And besides, he ripped me off when he sold me that book." 

"Fine!" I screamed. "Shoot me. Shoot me right through the door if you have the guts!"

My words were met by silence. When I looked through the peephole, there was no one there. Man, they sure can hide fast, I thought.

I didn't realize there hadn't been anyone there in the first place. 

It was February 2019 and I was experiencing my worst episode of psychosis. I had been taking medication that controlled the condition and hadn't been ill in years but a change in medications tipped me over the edge once more.

For me, psychosis has several elements. There are delusions — thoughts or ideas that somehow present themselves in my mind, like thinking I'm the King of England or the president of a large company. Then come hallucinations, the false sensory inputs that often reinforce my delusions. If someone says "Hello, Leif, how are you?" the illness changes it and it will seem the person instead said "Mr. President, your limousine is outside." 

Paranoia is the third element. When I heard the voices in the hallway, I became so terrified that I moved everything I had into my bedroom, covered myself with a blanket and ate canned meat on crackers. And I am susceptible to believing that even the most bizarre thoughts and ideas are real.

Even when I hadn't experienced psychosis for years, I would have nightmares that I was ill again. A regular bad dream can seem a lot like a psychotic episode. The biggest difference between psychosis and nightmares is that you wake up from nightmares; for me, only time and proper medication makes psychosis go away. 

We live in a world where words like "nuts," "crazy," "insane"' or "psycho"' are used to describe anything that appears extreme, where movies and television dramas depict criminals as persons with schizophrenia or other psychosis-related illnesses.

But as we're bombarded by all this, there is little public education about the true facts of mental illness. As a result, one of the hardest things becomes dealing with the fear and judgment — otherwise known as stigma — that the public has regarding the mentally ill.

Because of stigma, I have lost close friends and been fired from jobs. I was the joke of my high school when I was first diagnosed with bipolar disorder and a rift soon formed between me and some of the people I cared about most — family, friends, teachers, schoolmates and romantic prospects. 

It took years to reach a place where I had gained control over my illness and the stigma that went with it, largely thanks to living in a supervised group home sounded by people who accepted my illness, had training to deal with it, or suffered from an illness of their own. 

I lived in that group home for 15 years, and found new passions in my life like writing, swimming and photography. I began to feel indestructible. I had a great doctor who, when I discussed medication changes with him, insisted that we shouldn't tinker with something that was working. 

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