'I grieve for the ones that didn't come home': St. Anne's survivor helping to search for unmarked graves
CBC
WARNING: This story contains distressing details.
Rick Wabano was sitting in his Grade 2 classroom in Moosonee when a priest came in, took him home to pack a bag and then brought him down to the float plane dock.
He and two of his younger siblings were flying further up Ontario's James Bay Coast to the St. Anne's Indian Residential School in Fort Albany.
"My mom was there with a priest. She didn't say nothing," remembered the 61-year-old.
"My younger sibling was standing on the dock crying. She wanted to come with us."
Wabano recalls being excited to get to fly in a plane for the first time, but confused when he later ran into his older brother, who was already at St. Anne's.
"I couldn't even look at my brother if I passed him in the halls, because he would be punished if we made eye contact," he said.
"So I was wondering why he was ignoring me and I didn't know why until after."
Wabano, who has lived most of his life in Moosonee but is a citizen of Attawapiskat First Nation, says years later his brother, who has since died, told stories about abuse he faced, including the notorious "electric chair" used at St. Anne's.
"He carried a lot of his pain. The compensation did little to help with his healing," he said.
"When I hear a lot of these stories, a lot of them were happening under my nose."
Wabano has been hearing more of those stories in recent months, as part of the Nee Kee Wa Nan (which means coming home in Cree) group, funded by the provincial and federal governments to further explore the history of individual residential schools, including searching for unmarked graves.
He says a lot of elders are speaking for the first time about their experiences at St. Anne's and it makes him count his "blessings" even more.
"And this is probably why I'm doing this work today. I'm thriving, I'm telling my story, I'm raising my family and I think I carry that torch for the ones that didn't come home," said Wabano.